Inspired... 11:09 a.m. 2003-09-13
Current Listening: Pagan Babies by Elmore Leonard
If you're not making the money in your life that you think you should be making, if you have debt, if you can't save a penny, I am willing to bet that clutter is standing smack in the middle of what you have today and what you could have tomorrow. -Suze Orman
Being clear of clutter is one of the greatest aids I know to discovering and manifesting the life you want. -Karen Kingston
This morning, I absolutely do not want to get out of bed. I try to keep this journal upbeat, but I am not seeing much right now to be upbeat about. My husband is unemployed, I just found out how expensive it is going to be to add him to my medical insurance policy, we just got a notice from our homeowners association issuing a mandatory outside painting by the end of November. I feel like I am already drowning in debt. A friend called to ask if I wanted to go to the mall, but how can I even think of shopping?
And to think that, just two months ago, I treated my dad and my husband and myself to a trip to Mexico. Regrets? Well, no. Just as in the past when I "forced" a cruise on my husband, it seems to be true that, if you don't go, you never will. And, all of the decisions that we have made - house, insurance options, travel - were made on the assumption that we would both be employed.
To add to my blue mood, I got to worrying about the spot that my father had removed from is chest. One of my fellow teachers had a father that died of melanoma, and I am afraid that is what it will turn out to be. He said that his doctor said it wasn't (probably?), and my sister's mother-in-law who works for a dermatologist looked at it, and said it probably wasn't, but it sure looks like the ones in the Yahoo site where I inquired about skin cancer. Well, there's no way to know until Tuesday, I think.
Is all of this bumming you out? Well, it's bumming me out - and there is going to be no possibility for "relief" (read, anti-depressants) until I see a psychiatrist in mid-October. And, frankly, I don't see yet how drugs will help if the situation doesn't get any better.
So, this morning, after I got up, I went to the internet, and clicked on a few banners, read a few blogs. I think it was while I was searching for Journal Prompts (that good ol' Friday Five being a great way to attract people to my journal - I thought to find more...) that I came across a site called TrashLog.org. It's hard to describe - just go there. Then, I found a link to an art project for Art Collage Totes. I liked the idea, but this website is really amazing! I have been there for the past hour, and have found links to:
The list is endless. There are also scans of various Art Journals, scanned and displayed in her website. The inspiration for this entry is her Decluttering Journal, kept during a move out of her house - I think, after a divorce. The quotes are from that journal.
So, if you haven't gotten the gist of this whole entry, GO to Aisling D'Art - Wild Artistic Visions, and be inspired! I'm off to put on clothes and stuff...and maybe to get organized! I was going to do this last weekend - and, believe me, I have a lot to throw out.
My mother has invited me to go and see the preview for Under the Tuscan Sun tonight. I am torn. On the one hand, I really want to see it. But, on the other hand, I have an art gallery invite from a friend, and I am not sure if I want to see a movie about someone's dreamy life in Tuscany right now... We'll see...
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